I’m still feeling anxious but am slowly starting to win the battle…even if it is just for now. I’m focusing on living in the moment, creating a ‘to do’ list and starting with small tasks.
Journaling and blogging are also helping me. It gives me somewhere to empty my head and gather my thoughts rather than have them whirling in my brain, building and increasing my anxiety. I’ve spent far too much time in my own head with my anxious and less than rational thoughts and fears. That’s not to say all of my thoughts and fears are irrational, but they were the ones that were multiplying and fighting my attempts to calm my anxiety.
I’ve also realised that I need to increase my self care. Music, walking and cooking have always served me well in the past and will no doubt continue to do so but this time they weren’t enough on their own. I let things get too far and should’ve acted sooner…this has been building for at least a year. I guess it needed to come to a head to give me this wake up call.
I’m going to keep taking it one day at a time, caring for myself and being kinder to myself. If anyone else spoke to me the way I can talk to myself, I’d be furious. So I celebrate my little victories and take it slowly knowing that this too will pass and better days are coming.